This is not the blog post that I wanted to be writing. I rather detest writing it, to be exact. But after two weeks of waiting and praying, we found out officially today that the little girl we were hoping to pursue is now ON HOLD with one of the families in line ahead of us. This means that her file is locked for them as they begin the official paperwork for adopting her. While our information is still on file if something falls through, the much, much more likely scenario is that this path is not ours.
This is miserably hard. For me, the emotions that must be processed fall somewhere between how you feel when the pregnancy test is negative after months of trying and how you feel when you find out you are miscarrying. I am glad that this little girl is going to have a forever family and the chance to become whom God wants her to be. But let’s be honest – I wanted this family to be ours.
Please pray for peace. Pray for healing. This hurts. And pray that we find the little one that is meant to make us a family of 6!
This is miserably hard. For me, the emotions that must be processed fall somewhere between how you feel when the pregnancy test is negative after months of trying and how you feel when you find out you are miscarrying. I am glad that this little girl is going to have a forever family and the chance to become whom God wants her to be. But let’s be honest – I wanted this family to be ours.
Please pray for peace. Pray for healing. This hurts. And pray that we find the little one that is meant to make us a family of 6!
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