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The Crack in the Wall {#8}

After spending a day and a half emotionally processing the fact that Child A (the little girl we were pursuing) was on hold with another family, I realized that I had more questions for the agency.  As I mentioned before, our information is on file if something falls through with her adoption.  Now I have a few more specifics.  It was one of the first two families reviewing her file that decided to go forward with the adoption.  The agency estimates that there is a 75% chance that they will get the approval from China for the adoption.  We should know for certain in 2-3 weeks.  IF (note: BIG if) something were to happen to prevent that adoption moving forward, we would get to review her file and would be second in line for pursuing her adoption.

Also, as we were initially waiting to hear about Child A for over 3 weeks, I was continuing to look at other waiting children listings online.  There were two other girls that seemed like potential matches.  One of them is with the same agency at Child A.  As we wait for a final answer regarding Child A, we have also opted to be put on the waiting list to review the file of Child B.  That may happen sooner rather than later.  The agency knows that we really want a definite answer about Child A before moving forward with another child.  Also, the information that we have been given is more unclear about Child B, so there are more unknowns going into the process of reviewing her file, if we get that chance.

That’s where we are.  A crack in the wall, a slim possibility.  And more waiting.  A lot of that in this journey, indeed!  Also, a hard learned lesson about guarding my own heart more carefully.  But not too carefully!  Because what God wants me to learn from this process will only come to pass if I remain open to learning and loving . . . and the pain that may accompany it.

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